I can't wait for our breaking fast moment tomorrow! KLCC mari? :) Bring along your sizzling boy, (my baby Fedora, hahaha) Fuck you bitch, real hard. You curi him from me? Imma gonna kill you tomorrow. Hihi eyy what happened to your Facebook la? Can't post anything lah you ish cubit kang.
ps: I miss you, truck lots! xx
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Saturday, August 22, 2009
I got it from Dian.
"Aha ! I gotta a virus now from Atilia . She used to sleep in the morning , and now I'm getting the same virus from her. Oh man ! I can't sleep thats the point here babe =( . Mummy asked me to go to bed , get a rest and bla bla =) but am not sleepy , what should I do uh buddy ? * I'm super duper impress*
"Oh Atilia , tidur lah awal tidur lah awal,jangan lah engkau tidur lewat karena engkau akan membiarkan virus ini merebak di kalangan kawan engkau"!
(Jampi untuk you)"
Excuse me, woman? Hahaha, well too bad. Tehee. I know you love me too much. :P I'm back to basic. I can get up early by MYSELF. Impressive? ;) Be jealous baby girl. ♥
Get some rest lah k? Class nak start dah ni. You don't want to miss any class, now do you? Eyyy we have to get our asses to college or else we can't go stalk on Amm and Aidil nemore, hmm now what say you? HAHAHAHA GOTCHA! (ok now I miss Hafiz lol)
"Oh Atilia , tidur lah awal tidur lah awal,jangan lah engkau tidur lewat karena engkau akan membiarkan virus ini merebak di kalangan kawan engkau"!
(Jampi untuk you)"
Excuse me, woman? Hahaha, well too bad. Tehee. I know you love me too much. :P I'm back to basic. I can get up early by MYSELF. Impressive? ;) Be jealous baby girl. ♥
Get some rest lah k? Class nak start dah ni. You don't want to miss any class, now do you? Eyyy we have to get our asses to college or else we can't go stalk on Amm and Aidil nemore, hmm now what say you? HAHAHAHA GOTCHA! (ok now I miss Hafiz lol)
Friday, August 21, 2009
I wonder.
Looks can be very deceiving. I don't know if you agree or not, but to me it can.
Let's look at it in a guy's view.
What do you look for in a girl?
-Skinny-minny high class bootie girls.
-Perfect skin.
-Easy to say, gorgeous and good looking.
But do they look in the inside? No, they don't. Mhm, correct me if I'm wrong gents. But, I only say what I only see. Well, it happens a lot of times.
But, what if the girl is hideous in the inside?
What if she doesn't even have the brains to count 2 + 2?
What if all she knows is Gucci, Prada, Dolce&Gabbana, FENDI, and whatever other brands there in this world.
What if she cares about a broken nail more than she would ever care about a broken heart?
What if she laughs at almost everything cause she's just too slow to develop everything going on around her?
Eyy come on, I'm saying "what if" ladies, don't get too offended. Sometimes know that someone in the inside before you think about the outside. Looks can be very deceiving, not only about how pretty or good looking they are, also about how they dress. Come on girls, you don't expect everyone to buy branded stuffs, do you? If it's nice to wear, wear it. Why care about the brand? A girl can also be a girl if the only thing she wears is t-shirt and khaki jeans, you wouldn't know unless you know her, right? Why judge punks, skaters, indie freaks, or hip-hoppers by the way they look? Why divide them into clique? Sometimes I just don't get it, I don't get it at all. Life can be really funny sometimes.
Let's look at it in a guy's view.
What do you look for in a girl?
-Skinny-minny high class bootie girls.
-Perfect skin.
-Easy to say, gorgeous and good looking.
But do they look in the inside? No, they don't. Mhm, correct me if I'm wrong gents. But, I only say what I only see. Well, it happens a lot of times.
But, what if the girl is hideous in the inside?
What if she doesn't even have the brains to count 2 + 2?
What if all she knows is Gucci, Prada, Dolce&Gabbana, FENDI, and whatever other brands there in this world.
What if she cares about a broken nail more than she would ever care about a broken heart?
What if she laughs at almost everything cause she's just too slow to develop everything going on around her?
Eyy come on, I'm saying "what if" ladies, don't get too offended. Sometimes know that someone in the inside before you think about the outside. Looks can be very deceiving, not only about how pretty or good looking they are, also about how they dress. Come on girls, you don't expect everyone to buy branded stuffs, do you? If it's nice to wear, wear it. Why care about the brand? A girl can also be a girl if the only thing she wears is t-shirt and khaki jeans, you wouldn't know unless you know her, right? Why judge punks, skaters, indie freaks, or hip-hoppers by the way they look? Why divide them into clique? Sometimes I just don't get it, I don't get it at all. Life can be really funny sometimes.
Can't you see?
Why didn't I run before I fell?
Why didn't I turn back when I had time?
Why did I choose to get hurt?
Why didn't I turn back when I had time?
Why did I choose to get hurt?
But now, I made a different choice. I choose to surrender the good things that happened to me. Yeah, the laughs and smiles we shared, those moments we had. Let it go, I really think so. You want what's best for you and I think I hold that very big part, I'm gonna let you be happy. I'm holding you back from happiness and I think you deserve each and every bit of it. I'm not blaming you for this, because I think I'm the one that should be blamed. I hope you're happy. I don't want to be selfish, to just think about myself not her - your girl. I've been there and done that. I know how it feels. Yeah, you did told me before that you once leave her for another girl, just because she can't treat you the way the other girl treat you. And now you claim the same thing to me? But, what if, I can't treat you the way your girl does? You're going to leave me, no?
Look up and down.
All this while, I've been complaining, but who am I to blame. I got no rights to state who's right or wrong. Friends come and go, get use to it. Backstabbing, betraying and cheating is the common disease these days. But somehow we sometimes don't realize what we say or do when we feel the blood rushing through our veins and all you ever feel like doing is, scream so loud till you lose your voice. Yes, there are several types of bitches and A-holes that can really get on your nerve, and they are the best item to yell at. Right? But a friend can never be blame if you yourself made them mad with or without realizing it. Face it, this is life. Stop blaming and start understanding.
A friend.
I had a friend, at least I thought she was a friend. But she showed her true colors in the end. I've seen her random acts a lot, what she did to my other friends and they always tell me to stay away from her and don't trust her. But all I could say was "As long as she didn't do anything wrong to me, why should I stay away? "She's my friend, and I love her". Right at this very moment, I seem to regret everything I used to say about her, I regret pushing away everything people told me about her, I regret ever trusting her. She convinced me but then she lied, she made me trust her but then she stabbed me in the back, she made me believe her but then she made me have all these regrets. Now I realize I'm better off without her, but it hurts me a lot to lose someone I used to trust.
Longing.
A confession I have to make today, something I've been lying to myself for a long time. I miss being in love and I miss being loved. Totally different feelings. And I hate this thoughts I've been having lately. =(
Real bad.
We don't always get what we want and we don't always get what we need. Some words may hurt and some words may sting. But what's worst than a lie? :(
Do you prefer being with someone who's not only lying to himself but also to you? Do you feel great finding out your other half is actually not that in love with you? I know I wouldn't. It's best if we know the truth although how bad it may sting you. So ladies and gentleman, I've done this same mistake more than a gazillion times and I don't think I should be self-centered.
We can't blame the other person for saying that he/she doesn't love us. Love is something that can't be forced, right? The right one will come, maybe not today, not tomorrow nor the next day, but it will still come somehow someway. :')
All we have to do is just wait, mates!
Do you prefer being with someone who's not only lying to himself but also to you? Do you feel great finding out your other half is actually not that in love with you? I know I wouldn't. It's best if we know the truth although how bad it may sting you. So ladies and gentleman, I've done this same mistake more than a gazillion times and I don't think I should be self-centered.
We can't blame the other person for saying that he/she doesn't love us. Love is something that can't be forced, right? The right one will come, maybe not today, not tomorrow nor the next day, but it will still come somehow someway. :')
All we have to do is just wait, mates!
Think further.
Don't you see how we seem to dress to impress, and style up yourself so that all eyes are on you? You intend to lie just so people would notice you and fake a scene so that people could actually see you. How pathetic, don't you think? Now doesn't that sound familiar eyy? Okay, just a try, put on your basic jeans and t-shirt, well see if people would still like you that way. And for once, not lie to save your own ass might also be good for people around you. Other people gets the blame for your own bloody act. Feel like a hero now? You're going no where with what you're doing. No step forward, just a thousand steps backward, and where do you end up? So near with the crowd yet so far from true friends. I'm not sure you ever heard of it, cause as far as i know you got none. :)
Karma.
I'm glad that I can be such a bother or a pain in your fucking pie-hole because you have to remember, those hands you're holding right now, I've held them before. Those arms you're in right now were the ones holding me tightly once. The lips you're kissing right now were the lips I'd kiss-the-fuck of.
So back at cha', how does it feel to be holding and kissing me?
Nice ain't it? :')
Lifeless.
I want you to stalk this.
I want you to feel offended by my words.
I want you to know that this post is for you.
I want you to know that I speak the truth.
I want you to feel offended by my words.
I want you to know that this post is for you.
I want you to know that I speak the truth.
Just stop bitching and care so much because I don't.
Sick and tired.
I'm sick and tired of pleasing everybody around me, so I never do. I try to make peace but people piss me off way too much.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Fever.
I'm not feeling well. :'( I know I have to get some rest, lying on a bed and rest and rest and yes rest again. But, would it make any difference? No? Yes? I rather sit here, onlining and listening to some good music that can make me happy. I used to think that people who claim that they're sick but they end up onlining and post a comment to others telling how much they suffer from fever is such an immature kiddo. You demam tapi boleh online berjam-jam lamanya eyy. But, I myself did that. Lol, no offence!
I did not post a comment to the whole world and tell them how much I'm going to die soon and what not. I'm just posting a status to let them know. Hehehe. :P But, I don't need any sympathy yeah, as if it's going to cure me sooner or later? Syioh.
I tried to rest myself, take a nap or something but I can't. It succeed only for 2 hours then I'm so fresh, I mean, my eyes. I can't go out since I'm broke and Abah won't let me go out of course lah kan because I'm sick. So what did I do to kill the boredom out of me, I watch tv while onlining.
I'm craving for seafoooooddddddd! =( Can anyone make a bowl of bubur seafood for me? Haha, bubur je lah boleh telan, ish!
I did not post a comment to the whole world and tell them how much I'm going to die soon and what not. I'm just posting a status to let them know. Hehehe. :P But, I don't need any sympathy yeah, as if it's going to cure me sooner or later? Syioh.
I tried to rest myself, take a nap or something but I can't. It succeed only for 2 hours then I'm so fresh, I mean, my eyes. I can't go out since I'm broke and Abah won't let me go out of course lah kan because I'm sick. So what did I do to kill the boredom out of me, I watch tv while onlining.
I'm craving for seafoooooddddddd! =( Can anyone make a bowl of bubur seafood for me? Haha, bubur je lah boleh telan, ish!
H1N1 attack.
Lol, the title is so mesmerizing right? H1N1 cases are freaking me out like shit, damn! Won't it get any worst? Sheesh. Honestly speaking, I think I'm one of them. I mean, suspected cases. Because the symptom is there man, I'm not lying.
Batuk - ada.
Selsema - selalu.
Sakit badan - hah, belakang i.
Demam - not yet, tapi badan start panas, i guess.
Sakit tekak - selalu.
Am I one of them? :( I'm so afraid to check with the doctor, I know I have to, but gimme some time, will you?
ps: Stay away from me if you don't wanna die young! Tq.
Batuk - ada.
Selsema - selalu.
Sakit badan - hah, belakang i.
Demam - not yet, tapi badan start panas, i guess.
Sakit tekak - selalu.
Am I one of them? :( I'm so afraid to check with the doctor, I know I have to, but gimme some time, will you?
ps: Stay away from me if you don't wanna die young! Tq.
Brand new.
It's been a while since I last blog a post. Been really busy with party life, I must say. It's not that I wanna brag about how much I party and what not. I've come to realized that I waste truck lots of my time with night-life, alcohol and drugs. It's pointless, I tell you. Should've just stay at home with my loved ones and spend my whole time with them while I still can. These past few years of living, I've been living in a lie, I really am. As you can see, in my blog, I post so much about love life, well it's not really my love life - my crushes. get what I mean? there goes, boy A, boy B, boy C and etc. Funny isn't it? One girl can deal with tons of guys in one time. How cheap am I? LOL.
I sadly realized that I've changed. I used to be a firm girl back then. It's hard for me to fall in love, to put my trust on someone and things like that. But now, it's different. It's like I'm not me anymore. Trust me when I say, I don't know me anymore, really. How sad is that? I really need to find myself back.
I've made a pledge that I'm going to be better, I mean, I have to change myself for good. I used to think that without a guy in my life, I'll be miserable and lifeless, but hey look, I'm still here, still alive. Well, I've made a wrong conclusion. I'm better off alone, at least I think so. People change, don't we?
Anyways, sorry for all my wrong-doings, people.
I sadly realized that I've changed. I used to be a firm girl back then. It's hard for me to fall in love, to put my trust on someone and things like that. But now, it's different. It's like I'm not me anymore. Trust me when I say, I don't know me anymore, really. How sad is that? I really need to find myself back.
I've made a pledge that I'm going to be better, I mean, I have to change myself for good. I used to think that without a guy in my life, I'll be miserable and lifeless, but hey look, I'm still here, still alive. Well, I've made a wrong conclusion. I'm better off alone, at least I think so. People change, don't we?
Anyways, sorry for all my wrong-doings, people.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Turn-on.
Enrique Iglesias feat Lil Wayne - Push It.
My oh my, this video kinda stinks. But, I love this version. Take a look at Enrique in this video, OMG HE TURNS ME ON, seriously - no kidding. He's so sizzling and yummy. I feel like go bite him. Hahahahaha stop it Atilia. :p Hmmmm, Enrique? Haih it reminds me of this particular someone. I miss you and I love you, still. ♥
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Back to 90's.
Liquid dreams by O-Town.
OMG flashback to 2002. Ah, good old times. 5 sizzling hot hunks. Turns me on, really! :D Dan Miller is damn hot man, omg and Ashley is sexy! Wohooo. I wonder what these boys are doing now that they're not famous, LOL. Me love you, Dan baby! ♥
Spice up your life by Spice Girls.
Ah man, I'm turning 18 and I remember growing up listening to these girls. I had the hugest crush on Mel C. Gosh, I miss the old days. It really does bring up so many memories! :(
Friday, August 7, 2009
Let bygones be bygones.
This post goes to you - Heleeza Saidin.
Hey woman, stop saying sorry to me yeah? It's okay. Past is past. People made mistakes and people change. And so do I. Don't feel bad, sweetie. It's not really your fault. I don't blame you, not even close. Just so you know, our relationship is over not because of you. It ended because we have no chemistry anymore, and the fact that his love towards me is "nada". Don't blame yourself okay? Yes, I have to admit that I do blame you back then, but you have to understand my situation. It's hard for me to explain and put it in words. Ah, never mind. So, just let it be okay? You don't have to reminisce about me every time ur with him. No, don't be. I'm nothing to him, remember? Don't let go of this grand opportunity. Keep him tight with you.
Abdul Aziz Fikri, he's a nice boy - such a keeper. He can be pretty romantic at times. But just so you know, he has this huge ego that keep him from showing off his feelings. At least, I think so. You're one lucky bitch to have him by your side every where and then. I'm happy for you both. I really am. :)
Okay here I am, wanna make a confession.
I sadly realized that I'm not good enough for him. I am always with my emotional mode. I never cared about his feelings, all I think about is "Me, Myself and I". I never understand what he wants and what he needs. I never be there for him when he really needs me because I'm too busy with my girlfriends. I never give him a space to be alone because all I need is for him to be with me - every min/sec of my life. And the list goes on...
Well, I really hope you won't repeat my silly-arse mistakes. Be good, woman! You will never regret every single moment when you're with him, trust me. Keep my words safe with you - always. If you need anything, you know where to find me. Take a good care of yourself. Please be safe alright. Good day, mate.
Hey woman, stop saying sorry to me yeah? It's okay. Past is past. People made mistakes and people change. And so do I. Don't feel bad, sweetie. It's not really your fault. I don't blame you, not even close. Just so you know, our relationship is over not because of you. It ended because we have no chemistry anymore, and the fact that his love towards me is "nada". Don't blame yourself okay? Yes, I have to admit that I do blame you back then, but you have to understand my situation. It's hard for me to explain and put it in words. Ah, never mind. So, just let it be okay? You don't have to reminisce about me every time ur with him. No, don't be. I'm nothing to him, remember? Don't let go of this grand opportunity. Keep him tight with you.
Abdul Aziz Fikri, he's a nice boy - such a keeper. He can be pretty romantic at times. But just so you know, he has this huge ego that keep him from showing off his feelings. At least, I think so. You're one lucky bitch to have him by your side every where and then. I'm happy for you both. I really am. :)
Okay here I am, wanna make a confession.
I sadly realized that I'm not good enough for him. I am always with my emotional mode. I never cared about his feelings, all I think about is "Me, Myself and I". I never understand what he wants and what he needs. I never be there for him when he really needs me because I'm too busy with my girlfriends. I never give him a space to be alone because all I need is for him to be with me - every min/sec of my life. And the list goes on...
Well, I really hope you won't repeat my silly-arse mistakes. Be good, woman! You will never regret every single moment when you're with him, trust me. Keep my words safe with you - always. If you need anything, you know where to find me. Take a good care of yourself. Please be safe alright. Good day, mate.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Literally.
I want to learn to be Heartless. Seriously. I mean it.
Can anyone teach me on how to do that, hmm?
Stop.
Don't expect too much from me. Don't put any high expectations, I don't want to be responsible for your disappointment. And I mean it. Don't make me remind you, yet again, that I'm still a human being, just as much as you are.
I'm still a human, remember?
Hurt.
Your words cut me deep.
Why are you doing this to me?
Why must you keep on stabbing me?
Yet, you still insist me holding on to you.
After all those time of darkness, I thought I had actually become stronger. But why is it that with just a few words, you still managed to destroy everything? Why? I ain't got no clue. :(
Why are you doing this to me?
The last wound you gave me hasn't even completely healed.
Why must you keep on stabbing me?
Yet, you still insist me holding on to you.
After all those time of darkness, I thought I had actually become stronger. But why is it that with just a few words, you still managed to destroy everything? Why? I ain't got no clue. :(
The best friend.
Honestly, I'm kinda hurt.
Mhm believe it or not, I sometimes take things to heart. Just so you know, words do hurt - unintentionally. Especially when it comes from your best friend or your supposed best friend.
I sadly realized that I don't even know what we are anymore.
I feel like some of the things you say and how you act and what you do, frankly, make me feel like questioning our friendship. Sometimes with you because I know you, action speaks louder.
It makes me realize things like:
I know you don't like it when someone is better than you at something. Especially me. It's always been this way. I'm tired.
Mhm believe it or not, I sometimes take things to heart. Just so you know, words do hurt - unintentionally. Especially when it comes from your best friend or your supposed best friend.
I sadly realized that I don't even know what we are anymore.
I feel like some of the things you say and how you act and what you do, frankly, make me feel like questioning our friendship. Sometimes with you because I know you, action speaks louder.
It makes me realize things like:
I know you don't like it when someone is better than you at something. Especially me. It's always been this way. I'm tired.
After all these years,
I don't know man.
I don't want to know.
I don't know man.
I don't want to know.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Deep inside.
My feelings towards you are certainly not a questionable matter because I am indeed, head over heels for you. Even if I don't really express my feelings through poems or sweet words/talks, that does not mean that I don't love you as much because the fact is, I do. Those short period of time I got to spend with you, are the ones I cherish.
I might be over my head but I have indeed, fallen hard for you. Yes, I do. No, others' opinions of how you are, your attitude and such do not concern me. I have learnt to not let others get to me - not this time.
I might be over my head but I have indeed, fallen hard for you. Yes, I do. No, others' opinions of how you are, your attitude and such do not concern me. I have learnt to not let others get to me - not this time.
My eagle-eyed charming racer,
you had me, right there.
Monday, August 3, 2009
143.
I lied when I said I wasn't nervous anymore when I wanted to meet you, I was mad at that time and you know when people are mad they do stupid stuff and stupid decisions. I am unstable and am afraid. Afraid of what you ask? Afraid of falling again and again. I can't bare watch myself fall again, it's just too hurtful. I need you to give me one good reason why I shouldn't feel that way? I've a lot on my mind and I need to let it out.
Everything is different.
People change, oh yes they do. No matter how you're trying not to admit it. They're true. People change, your friends change, your other half change, even you yourself change and there's really nothing you can do but to just move on with life.
It's heartbreaking, realizing that the people around you that you love has transformed into someone you don't know. And the hardest part is, when there's a time you'll lose a friend or two.
People change when they're in love. People change when they found a new clique to hang with. People change when they've just got their license or maybe a car. People change when they think too much what people say about them. People change when they started to think that they're too cool to talk to anyone. People change when everyone starts to know them, praising them and they'll forget about us (old mates) and left us behind sad? I know.
It's heartbreaking, realizing that the people around you that you love has transformed into someone you don't know. And the hardest part is, when there's a time you'll lose a friend or two.
Everyone is going their own way i guess?
People change when they're in love. People change when they found a new clique to hang with. People change when they've just got their license or maybe a car. People change when they think too much what people say about them. People change when they started to think that they're too cool to talk to anyone. People change when everyone starts to know them, praising them and they'll forget about us (old mates) and left us behind sad? I know.
It takes time.
To realize...
You still love, still care, kept on contacting even though you've been treated unfairly.
I'm not putting all the blame on you because that would be mean and I'm not that mean. I've done a lot of mistakes too, said all those things that wasn't supposed to. Now from what I've been writing, people might thought you're the bad guy? Well not really, but believe me I'm not going out with someone else never intended to do so. Not for now.
Even though some of the people around you, have been telling that it's time to leave, but you didn't instead, you fight for your rights and because you know that there's still hope, there's still love despite all the fights, misunderstandings, selfishness, ego and the friends-comes-first issue.
You might call me stupid, but I just can't stop whatever I'm doing right now. You're just a part of me that I can't let go. :( I've done lotsa mistakes back then and I really don't want to repeat it again, now, forever and always. And for I to lose you.
You still love, still care, kept on contacting even though you've been treated unfairly.
I'm not putting all the blame on you because that would be mean and I'm not that mean. I've done a lot of mistakes too, said all those things that wasn't supposed to. Now from what I've been writing, people might thought you're the bad guy? Well not really, but believe me I'm not going out with someone else never intended to do so. Not for now.
Even though some of the people around you, have been telling that it's time to leave, but you didn't instead, you fight for your rights and because you know that there's still hope, there's still love despite all the fights, misunderstandings, selfishness, ego and the friends-comes-first issue.
You might call me stupid, but I just can't stop whatever I'm doing right now. You're just a part of me that I can't let go. :( I've done lotsa mistakes back then and I really don't want to repeat it again, now, forever and always. And for I to lose you.
My surroundings.
From what I observed, felt and heard.
1) Love the other too much and still do even though they've been giving you a very hard time.
2) Couldn't careless about the other half and is about to give up because wants freedom and thinks that the other deserve someone better. (This is bullshit)
3) When sometimes fighting is a daily routine and there's really nothing you can do, yeah and I mean "nothing".
4) Been avoiding the other because you think that it's time. or as you all might know "bosan".
5) Now you're not being fair when they're not allowed to do stuffs that they wanted to do so but somehow you can? Now that's selfish. Come on, be fair la.
6) When you think too much about the other and you can't let go. They're about to let you go but you just can't even if you do it'll keep on haunting you.
7) When you know you're like the only one loving, it hurts even more, well don't they? It's like you're in a relationship but there's no "US". (Macam bercinta sorang-sorang)
8) Confused and need a holiday.
9) Feeling a little bit unappreciated. A friend once tell me, never expect something in return when you know the reason you gave them is because you wanted to do so, not because you want them to do the same thing.
10) Dude! Come on, stop choosing the damn balls, just pick one cause it might hurt them.
11) When friends have this "thing" over you and you're like confused who should you choose. The other or them, hah!
12) When there's a third party and you've been trying to impress the other. But you don't know if it's working or not, cause you have a rival.
13) KALAU DAH SAYANG TU, JANGAN PUTUS ASA! TERUSKAN PERJUANGAN! =)
1) Love the other too much and still do even though they've been giving you a very hard time.
2) Couldn't careless about the other half and is about to give up because wants freedom and thinks that the other deserve someone better. (This is bullshit)
3) When sometimes fighting is a daily routine and there's really nothing you can do, yeah and I mean "nothing".
4) Been avoiding the other because you think that it's time. or as you all might know "bosan".
5) Now you're not being fair when they're not allowed to do stuffs that they wanted to do so but somehow you can? Now that's selfish. Come on, be fair la.
6) When you think too much about the other and you can't let go. They're about to let you go but you just can't even if you do it'll keep on haunting you.
7) When you know you're like the only one loving, it hurts even more, well don't they? It's like you're in a relationship but there's no "US". (Macam bercinta sorang-sorang)
8) Confused and need a holiday.
9) Feeling a little bit unappreciated. A friend once tell me, never expect something in return when you know the reason you gave them is because you wanted to do so, not because you want them to do the same thing.
10) Dude! Come on, stop choosing the damn balls, just pick one cause it might hurt them.
11) When friends have this "thing" over you and you're like confused who should you choose. The other or them, hah!
12) When there's a third party and you've been trying to impress the other. But you don't know if it's working or not, cause you have a rival.
13) KALAU DAH SAYANG TU, JANGAN PUTUS ASA! TERUSKAN PERJUANGAN! =)
Frankly speaking.
You'll reach this one point where you couldn't careless, not because you stopped loving only because you'll realize that being mad about the stupidest little things IS STUPID. Everyone needs their own space, come on everyone wants freedom, now don't you? A friend once told me that you don't need to contact each other 24/7 to show that you love each other. 2 - 3 messages a day will do. But then again, I might be wrong. Things might turn out the other way round right? The truth is, we can't predict the future, stop planning something big like marriage (I've learned my lesson, and it hit me hard on the face/heart/head). Especially when they made it clear that they'll find someone else in the future. Ah come on, hey we're still too young to do so, life's all about having fun look around you have mates to have fun with. :-) Good day, mates.
Goes to everyone.
Maybe I have changed,
Maybe I'm still the same,
Maybe we just don't know each other that well,
Maybe you should just deal with it,
Maybe I prefer to be heartless,
Maybe you're the one who made me like this,
Maybe I prefer to write sappy words than the opposite,
Maybe we just don't click,
Maybe I don't like you.
Maybe I'm still the same,
Maybe we just don't know each other that well,
Maybe you should just deal with it,
Maybe I prefer to be heartless,
Maybe you're the one who made me like this,
Maybe I prefer to write sappy words than the opposite,
Maybe we just don't click,
Maybe I don't like you.
Karma's a bitch.
Now that's what everyone around here have been talking about "Karma". That's not what I'm here for. Well the thing is, people miss-used and misunderstood the meaning of "karma".
Lemme get this straight, karma happens when, ok lemme give you one example and this has nothing to do with me or anyone around me okay. I'm just writing what's on my mind.
It happens when you did something behind your other half WITHOUT them knowing, and the next thing you know they confessed and told you the truth that they cheated. Ah, now that's karma.
BUT,
when you were treated unfairly or you didn't get the attention you wanted and you purposely did the things they did to you in return, now that's not karma bitch, that's just plain revenge! Ish, come on lah. Get it right.
Lemme get this straight, karma happens when, ok lemme give you one example and this has nothing to do with me or anyone around me okay. I'm just writing what's on my mind.
It happens when you did something behind your other half WITHOUT them knowing, and the next thing you know they confessed and told you the truth that they cheated. Ah, now that's karma.
BUT,
when you were treated unfairly or you didn't get the attention you wanted and you purposely did the things they did to you in return, now that's not karma bitch, that's just plain revenge! Ish, come on lah. Get it right.
I need to stop this.
you don't know what you'll lose until you actually lost it.
A year plus. What's really keeping us together? The fact that we know we love each other and that's already okay. Who said you have to contact each other constantly without fail to actually be in a relationship? Bullshit! I'm already used to the situation, so yeah to whoever who's dating someone in college, good luck in life I know it's tough but don't ever look down even if you're at this one point where you can't stand watching yourself falling and you've reached a stage where you felt like giving up, well don't give up just yet kept on trying.
Don't repeat my bloody-ass-mistake. Thanks!
Knock me down.
The way he holds my hand in the car reminds me of you, July 14th. I don't know. Suddenly it popped out of my mind. The feelings are different. I feel as if you're there with me. I swear. I know I need to stop all this. I know I need to stop comparing you and them. But I just can't.
Remember when I told you this: "No one can ever takes the place where you stand in my heart, now and forever." I really meant it. When I say forever, I mean it. You know me well, now don't you?
I love you with all of my heart. You're irreplaceable and I'm not just saying this. It's true and you know it. There's just no one in this world that gets me like you do. Well yeah, I know nothing lasts forever and nobody knows if we're gonna be together that long. Those fights made us even closer to each other.
I miss you.
xx
Remember when I told you this: "No one can ever takes the place where you stand in my heart, now and forever." I really meant it. When I say forever, I mean it. You know me well, now don't you?
I love you with all of my heart. You're irreplaceable and I'm not just saying this. It's true and you know it. There's just no one in this world that gets me like you do. Well yeah, I know nothing lasts forever and nobody knows if we're gonna be together that long. Those fights made us even closer to each other.
I miss you.
xx
Confession.
I think too much. I cry too much. Being afraid makes me stupid. I know. I hide everything, I have issues. I don't know why am I acting like this. I'm clueless. I keep on lying to myself. It feels good, I tell you. I fake a smile and laugh. Because deep down inside, I know, one day I'll be fine. I'll be okay.
I've been too down for so long.
I've been too careful for so long.
I've been too careful for so long.
I think...
It's time!
It's time!
I remember.
Someone once said this to me. I sadly realized that, I repeat the same mistake. Same-old-mistake just like what I did to Adam. OMG now I have the guts to mention his name in here. Nice!
You think too much and you're losing it. Your huge ego and pride won't get you any far.
Too much thinking.
1) How can you tell the difference between what's right and what's wrong?
2) How do you know what's right and what's wrong?
3) How do you know that you're supposed to stay or the other way round?
4) Let's say if what they've been whispering about is right?
5) Is this some kind of punishment where I did something?
6) Am i weak, stupid?
2) How do you know what's right and what's wrong?
3) How do you know that you're supposed to stay or the other way round?
4) Let's say if what they've been whispering about is right?
5) Is this some kind of punishment where I did something?
6) Am i weak, stupid?
ANSWER!
Sleepless.
Don't you think it's too early? Don't you? Don't you? or I'm the only here who's just pretending to be nice? Hmm, honestly, it's an unfinished business. I'm sorry I have issues, I have erasable memory issue. :'( *tears*
I feel like hugging you right now. :-( I miss you, I really do. I'm sorry it went out this way. I don't know what's wrong with me. I still couldn't find the clue. I'm useless. I don't know why I did this. I thought you're just another mistake. I thought you're just the same. I thought you'd leave me.
I thought you'd never begged....
I feel like hugging you right now. :-( I miss you, I really do. I'm sorry it went out this way. I don't know what's wrong with me. I still couldn't find the clue. I'm useless. I don't know why I did this. I thought you're just another mistake. I thought you're just the same. I thought you'd leave me.
I thought you'd never begged....
BUT, you did! =(
Wrecking.
You did me wrong but I gotta be strong. When I thought that we were really down, I really mean it. So now, you say you want me. Well, make up your mind because I'm not gonna be here for long. I don't want to get involve in those puppy love anymore, I'm tired. I really am. I want a real deal. If only you knew how hard for me to get through all this.
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