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I lied when I said I wasn't nervous anymore when I wanted to meet you, I was mad at that time and you know when people are mad they do stupid stuff and stupid decisions. I am unstable and am afraid. Afraid of what you ask? Afraid of falling again and again. I can't bare watch myself fall again, it's just too hurtful. I need you to give me one good reason why I shouldn't feel that way? I've a lot on my mind and I need to let it out.