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No, I won't bitch about you in my blog, sadly. Beause I'm better than that. I don't use my blog as a place where I tell everyone how much I hate you. So long, low-class bitch.

Tired.

Why do I always fall for the wrong guys. I mean, every time I realize I'm falling for someone, in the middle of it, there's always a giant thick, really thick wall in the middle of us. I don't know, maybe my imaginations just a bit off. People used to tell me that all-the-time when I was younger.

Well for example, when I think I'm falling for someone suddenly bam, he has a girlfriend or bam, he's in love with a bitch who ruined my life. Mhm yeah, stuffs like that.

It's just bloody annoying and when I see my sister/brother, friends or my cousins happy with their soul-mates, it makes me think. I mean I want that, I want the exact same thing.

Cut the money, cut the looks. It's just me and him, us.
Just us, nothing else matters.

But every time I say something about it, one of them will eventually say "good things happen to those who wait" or
"wait for your turn. Mister right is just around the corner". Eek! like what the hell, how long do I have to wait and how long is this corner cause trust me, I can't even see his shadow from where I'm standing. *sighs. Maybe, I'm just jealous of them and they're so happy. No, not maybe, I am jealous of them. It's just, sometimes I want to end just one day with a smile on my face. No problems, no mistakes. Almost even perfect.

Space and time.

I'm sick and tired of people buzzing about my life. Don't be offended. To be honest, I live on an isolated hill where nothing happens. I'm turning legal 18 and when you live on an isolated hill where nothing happens, you tend to get bored.

I don't enjoy entertaining myself with television no matter how big it is. You can't cage me in the house forever. You can't cage me from doing regretful things.

To neighbors, especially the one living next to me who has nothing else to do but stalk whatever I do, get a life -- seriously. I don't need another pair of eyes watching me. I don't like you, I've never liked you. To me, you're nothing.

Get a life people, don't buzz into other people's lives.

Keep it real.

Truth be told...

Well, dig the truth --
I can't hide my feelings especially when the whole world can see.

Same old shit.

I'd be a liar if I told you that I didn't see it coming.
Be more of a lie if I said I didn't want it to be something.

It kills me.

Somebody accused me of the things I never thought of, would happened to myself and I didn't do, obviously? And it happens to be - A friend of mine.

No, I don't blame you girl, not even close.

It pains me to know that your family (a mother, a brother) keeps calling me and accused me this and that without even care to know what I'm feeling, what I'm going through. They never tend to listen to me, from my side. Is it fair? They could at least just listen. That's it. Why is it so hard for them to just listen. I don't understand, really I am. I thought they're mature enough to think what's right and what's wrong. But sadly, they act like an immature kid. Sorry for being rude but they've crossed my limit.

Just so you know girl, I've been through even worst than this. Well, it reminds me of Amir Syahmi's family - who happens to did the same thing to me, back in 2003.

You lost your special something. It hurts you real bad.
Girl, I know how it feels. I've beeen there.


But, tell me;
What does that have to do with me, hmm? :'(

End of road.

Do I remind you of the pain that she put you through? Is that the reason I’m to blame? Is it because she treated you badly and now you accused me. It’s killing me boy, knowing that you compare me to her. She left a scar across your heart. Yes, I understand boy. Don’t let her wrongs tear us apart. Because I'm not who's hurting you, boy. Just because she did, you swear I’m cheating and you think I just don't care. Boy, you know that ain't fair right. I'm just trying to show you something real. And yeah, for you to figure out what is going on.

But, I think you ain't gonna change your mind. Things didn't work out between us, should've known earlier. Sorry, I'm not good enough for you. If this was meant to be, then we'll see each other again and we'll be together in the end. We just need some time apart for now. I wish you everything great in this world. Thank you for everything. I hope we'll cross paths again, but for now best of luck to you.